Hey Josh,
I know at times the struggle is real and can make anyone feel down or upset. But here's a some verses of encouragement my Brother.

(Matthew 5:10-12) "Blessed are they which are persecuted for righteousness’ sake: for theirs is the kingdom of heaven. {11} Blessed are ye, when men shall revile you, and persecute you, and shall say all manner of evil against you falsely, for my sake. {12} Rejoice, and be exceeding glad: for great is your reward in heaven: for so persecuted they the prophets which were before you."