I was recently listening to a podcast on the first world war and how the returning veterans with PTSD were looked down upon because of their behavioral changes and not being able to face up to life was attributed to them being not good enough to do a soldier's job. Back then we had no understanding of PTSD, in fact no one even knew that something like that exists.

We have come a long way from that, but that does not change what goes on in the mind of someone who had to see and be part of experiences which no human being should have to go through.

I never read something like this from someone who is or has gone through such pain personally. I do not have suggestions as I am not a medical professional and my understanding of the subject is limited to what I have heard and read here and there.

What I can say is, I see that you are fighting it out and winning. Just carry on with it. My and everyone else's best wishes are always there with you to help you overcome this.