Really heartrending. It should not be that anyone experiences this, from the depths of my soul I wish you had not. I, like you, experienced deep levels of abuse growing up and as apposed to repeating the cycle stepped away from violence and become a parent and an advocate. I applaud your courage and want you to know that for what its worth I understand and recognize how hard your path has been, bravo! Thank you so much for sharing this, it could not have been easy. Much love to you!