just as @mikesthoughts said. We are here and a lot of what you wrote I too deal with on a daily bases. You are not alone. Never think you are!!

Come join the freewriters and ..........it helps.........in 5 minutes a day....even if you don't feel comfortable posting it.......I call it my '5 minutes frrewrite therapy* for the day. it helps you realize what is on your mind that day at that minute and somehow it helps you work through things that have been bothering you for so long. Trust me there. please.

here is todays prompt. even if you don't write tonight.read a few and you will see you are not alone hugs to you AND your wife

https://steemit.com/freewrite/@mariannewest/day-132-5-minute-freewrite-wednesday-prompt-gardening