Does life ever get better?

It's 3am and I'm still awake, reality been hitting so hard lately.
It really got me up all night thinking, pondering and wondering with tears streaming down my eyes

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What happens when things don't work out the way you planned?
After failure what next?
What happens next when your motivation, Ideas and energy gets exhausted without a positive outcome?
What do you do when everything seems to work against you?
Surviving becomes an adventure and keeping up with daily needs becomes even harder
What do you do then?
I want to know cause I feel like I've been dragged into something I was not ready for, I never asked to be here , I just gained consciousness and was already here l, now I have all these bills to pay and I can't even keep up with them .
Oh if I could choose maybe I'd never be born cause life seems way too stress I hope I find peace someday 😭