When everything goes to hell.. ..you get up and teach that sassy life a lesson

sjennon (66)in #life • 9 years ago

BUT WTF WHY IS THAT SO HARD OMG

Okay, so a summary of my last month:
Phone died, laptop died, grandpa died, thesis got extended, no motivation, can't find a house to move into next month, scarce on money, stress, ugh, blegh, meh.

So, welcome to the rant about my current days, where I feel like just sitting inside, doing completely nothing and just sit in my bed.

Let's start where it began:
SO! Family birthday, happy happy family. I charged my phone that day as usual, last time I checked it had 60%. Maybe a hour later I took it out of my pocket and BOOM SURPRISE MOTHERFUCKER I AM OFF AND NEVER EVER TURNING ON AGAIN. So, my lovely One Plus X decided to die on me. It was charged but wasn't turning on again. I've tried several things, had a call with customer support but unfortunately I had to send it to Nurnberg where they would hopefully repair my beloved phone. For now, I am stuck with my shitty HTC One which randomly dies when it goes below 20%. Sometimes at 16% or 8% and maybe even 2% - always be aware of the unexpected!

Then, my 91-year-old grandfather's body gave out. He died peacefully and spend the last two days high on morphine and painkillers. Gladly, he's now without pain. At the time of his death, I wasn't home. I was in Berlin, looking for places to live in January. So then I had to quickly get a flight back to Amsterdam to arrange a bunch of stuff for the funeral and support my family. Yesterday, I saw him. It was weird, but according to the people who saw him right after his death, he looked better. It was both weird, confronting but comforting too, to see him. The idea of his passing has finally dawned on me that day. Anyway, not really fond of this subject, so let's go onto the next.

SO! Don't forget the death of my laptop battery. So, I went back to the store. Apparently they do not want to give me a battery, but I need to send my laptop away for 2/3 weeks so they can check it. Good for me, cause I don't have anything to do at all. Also, my dear € 1000,- ASUS laptop, has been sent away before because my motherboard was fucked up. For that amount of money, I am not really prepared to visit the store twice a year and be without a laptop for 6 weeks in total. Oh, how great it all is. Then in addition to that, I am leaving to Berlin after Christmas, so I have to send it RIGHT away in order to HOPEFULLY get it back before I go.

Then, I still need to finish my wonderful thesis which I awfully suck at. I am having the worst time with properly writing down my research. In case you guys were wondering: it's a project called Comad. Basically, it's a start-up idea which brings a solution for digital nomads, people who work and travel at the same time. The purpose of Comad is to connecting comads (co-nomads) together based on mutual interest and allowing them to travel together. The whole backstory involves basically social connections and loneliness.

Call me spoiled, stupid, non-appreciating life, but I just had a little raging, mental breakdown this morning. To be honest, it's now 2 in the afternoon and I am kinda calming down.. kinda.