Dude, I will always upvote you, you write from the heart and while I don't always agree, I see you making far more effort than most here.

I feel that we are very similar in ways and I can relate to your position, however, finding the "thing" to take you into the next stage of your life is bloody hard for most people. You seem to have a real passion for animals but unfortunately, in my experience, it is not a very lucrative endeavour. Its kinda counterproductive in terms of financial freedom but traveling is the thing that always sorted my perspective especially to countries that are not as well of as us, like Thailand. Seeing people with very little yet so happy is truly eye-opening .