“Yes, I guess you could say I am a loner, but I feel more lonely in a crowded room with boring people than I feel on my own."
- Henry Rollins
So I view myself as the most misunderstood boy alive.
I’ve often felt like an outcast. Not seen as a “cool kid”
I was often left out of activities and exiled from most social stuffs that happened whether it is at school or at the local football club. I didn’t fit in or have my own Kliq (WWE reference) I couldn’t keep up with the latest fashion trends and I still can’t. I often struggled with Identify issues.
I still do.
Who am I?
What fits me?
When will I become happy?
What am I doing?
These are the questions that constantly swirl around my head on a nightly basis. It’s at night when you’re looking up at the ceiling questioning your entire existence.
I remember at school in class room full of kids all with the same mentality the class on a whole including our form tutor felt like a nice little family.
I was not a part of family.
In a crowded room of people all with the same mentality in what I imagine had a positive atmosphere. I never felt more alone.
I’m now recognized by my unique personality. It fuels my wrestling career and helps me stand out on what is a packed British wrestling scene.
I don’t know whether that’s a good thing or not.
I guess we’ll find out eh? Seeing as I have no intention of becoming “normal” (this in my opinion doesn’t exist)
I often identify with Superheroes mainly Marvel but DC characters has resonated with me greatly too. I’ve just finished watching Luke Cage and that show reached out to me like a high five through the TV screen. I feel like Luke Cage screams out “I feel your pain” to me during legitimately every episode.
• We both black.....” yo”.
• We both experienced betrayal by loved ones
• We both have adversaries that have attempted to turn people against us
• We both like coffee but I like mine white with alot of milk and a dash of eastern European flavouring
• We both fight for what we believe in.
So what we have gathered from this is that I am Luke Cage...And that even though life seems lonely. I’m sure I won’t feel like that forever.
I love my personality and I love what I do and I definitely don’t regret my past struggles.
So yeah! At the moment I feel a little lonely, misunderstood and left out.
But I’m sure it won’t last because I know there are people out there that share my sentiment.
Love you all.