RE: What’s best is not always what is preferred
The job of parenting is so so challenging, although I'm not a parent yet, but I know some day I will.
I'm trying to put myself in your son's shoe to feel the way he felt,it must have been a very challenging moment. I'm happy he was withdrawn from that school on time.
Contemplating about sending him back to school or homeschooling, you said...
I am scared that sending my child back to school even though it feels right and he seems ready is going to put me back in that same headspace of high alert. It was an incredibly challenging period that I do not care to revisit.
But like I said initially, parenting is not an easy job,i know you have to deal with the stress, you have to set the ringer on again, you have to face the fear of repeated meltdown etc.... Being in high alert seems daunting but for your son's sake, it's worth it. Afterall, its not about what you want, but about what your son wants.
Now, we are not considering what is preferred but what's best.
@sammynathaniels, You are right. And one thing I know is that I have a better team, better support, better understanding for this next leg. I think I will be far more capable of managing my anxiety. Plus having him up the road means I can be in my house rather than in my parked car up the street and be very accessible if/when I'm needed.