This is really emotional, thank you for sharing!
From my side I can say only that everything that happens happens for good. I have experienced that on my own- last year when my life has crushed- all my dreams just broke in one day and I had even no motivation to wake up and go to work or just do something- this has been for good, now I see that. Sometimes you need to say good bye to take a deep breath, to remember all good and really to see how much do you have in your life to be thankful for and this would be the wonderful beginning of the upcoming journey! Good luck, steeminians believe in you!!