alone as usual

i wonder why i am always alone.why i was never loved, even by my parents. why everything has to be so hard.i join dating websites & get nothing but losers emailing me filth.i go to parties & get ignored.my eggs are drying up while others get what i want.

i've given up the idea that i will ever have kids(thanks to all the men who have wasted my time)& now it looks like i wont even get married before i am 40.merry christmas?