Sorry you are going through this drama. A couple points of advice: keep the positives in focus. Throw away the negatives completely (they only drag you further down). Anger is a defense mechanism that protects us from feeling the pain of hurt. It is easier to be angry than it is to be hurt, but hurt helps us to be stronger. So don't deny hurt. Forgiveness is the next step in the process . This is the one I really struggle with. I've been told you can have forgiveness with out repentance, but it is much much harder. There is always light at the end of the tunnel (no matter how long that is)