RE: "Saying NO To Toxicity..."
I guess that’s what must be meant by the “closed and repelling aura.” Interesting to hear a Manifestor’s experience of that in different wording.
I’d guess that the key to your initiation lies in your authority - waiting out whatever emotional waves for clarity that whatever it is is in fact the correct thing to be initiating.
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I’m... hmmm...
Primarily been in recovery mode, physical & emotional. Slow process.
Been putting in work on a remix that just finished & dropped today. I’m definitely understand more of my triple-activated Gate 9 (of Details)... absolutely loving the process of refining my senses and skills to diver deeper and deeper into the alchemy of production. I love the sense of improvement, each new project going into new territory, building upon past achievements, and exploring new dimensions. I had a lot of fun with this one, and found it nice to sort of find a sustainable workflow & groove as managing my time & energy effectively & efficiently - whereas I used to burn out easy by pushing too hard when the waves of energy weren’t there for it. Ahhh, yes. Sigh. The smile on my face. Lol.
Aside from that... no curiosities coming to mind, really. Still leaking a lot of energy from the open separation wounds and physical challenges lately (although there has been slight improvement the last week), so focus split between the healing and music. Not much attention span for a whole lot else, other than the usual bit of Human Design & astrology...
Kisses&Scotch,
~Rok~
lol 😁
Scotch will do just nicely, thank you! ^^
flops in a chair
That refining the senses and skills part sounds like something really delicious.. and surely, important now to overwork onself.. (says the hypocrite).. what? khem.. who said that? khe-khe..
I .. shall look into the super slave phenomenon.. just to reassure myself that I'm nowhere even near that yet. :)
Some people seem to be concerned, but I'm not even sure about what. I'm not drained by work itself as much as .. say interpersonal, psychological strife.. which is luckily something that is not even that predominant these days.
...and by saying all this I sound like a typical case of someone in denial.. nice. :D
Carry on, move along, nothing to see here. xD
;)
Lol. You have an interesting, funny style sometimes.
I didn’t mean “push too hard” to be overworking, so much as working against the creative flow. Maybe it’s the 12-22 channel, where the energy is either there or not - ‘in the mood, or not... I never totally understood this phenomena, and operating out of very Manifestor & defined-heart/ego/will type conditioning (not-self), I’d frequently be of the motivational “hustle” mentality, trying to be “disciplined” and take it so seriously, sitting down driven by mind to push my way through when the energy wasn’t actually there. fuck, those were some painful times!
This project was especially more interesting as I was attuning to the waves and riding them, taking more frequent breaks, operating in bursts. Was sorta forced at the beginning, as the stuff with my body going on required a lot of stretching/rest and I could only sit for so long between needing the breaks - though perhaps that was almost sort of a gateway to the experience of riding those waves for half hour or hour, then walk away and recharge for a bit until was feeling the next burst. Also - not starting in the day until I actually felt it, versus trying to follow some conventional “start early” schedule... my creative hours typically are later, with much better results and experience honouring that rather than swimming against the stream.
Of course, I’ve also gone through straight-up overworking myself too. Not so much with music, but more a intensity with studies, writing, and mental activity. Though I guess I had to experience what burnout was like sometime or another, so may as well ‘go big or go home.’ Lol.
My goodness, my writing feels like a mess today. 🤐
Sometimes.
The scary manifestor can be playful.
Plot twist. Who knew..? :D
Lol.
I’m curious as to where this idea you’re “scary” came from (as I never would’ve thought it). Conditioning? Self-judgement? Or does all self-judgement come as a result of conditioning...?