God is NOT Tricksy! Jesus came to FREE you!
If you have anything else apart from faith, joy, wonderment or love for God/Jesus/Holy Spirit in your life, you are believing the lies of Satan.
God wants us to be free!! Communion with God is the best possible thing in life. God's peace, love and joy stands out from everything else. This is the KINGDOM OF GOD! It is here for His children. The Son of God came to free us COMPLETELY from the kingdom of darkness so why settle for anything less!? The kingdom of darkness is enticing but based on a false light which appears good to many, including the supposed rulers of this world.
We are made in the image of God but God is not a human being. God is not like some aloof CEO of a company or some other creation! He knew what He was doing when He created it all.
If we feel blocked from God on any level -- most likely, on many levels -- we are falling for the lies of Satan and his lackeys -- all rebellious against God. No one can follow 2 masters and most of the world is falling for the rebellious-to-God system.
Jesus wants us to be co-heirs in His Kingdom. On the other hand, the fallen angel Satan/Lucifer gives us a lot of BS and says you can be God, ascend to be God or "transcend duality" etc. The snake and his lackeys try to get you to mistrust God or doubt God's existence or His love and forgiveness for our own inner darkness. Don't fall for it. We can be free of it all. When we know Truth it's much easier to see through lies.
It also doesn't matter if you FEEL blocked, guilty, condemned, aloof, confused etc. We DON'T need to feel a certain way to be with God. We don't have pay for anything to actually exist in this moment, do we?? Whatever we think, we are already in a relationship with our Father because He already sustains us in each and every moment. In the presence of God, we easily come out through the other side of everything not of God. No techniques or intermediaries (like fake ascended masters, angels, saints, enlightened beings or pay-as-you-go spirituality) are needed to be with God.
God is already HERE for us NOW. Don't give up reaching out for Him.