I've honestly been thinking about you a lot these last couple of weeks. My fingers are crossed that small businesses get a metric fuck-ton of help here, and soon, to be able to weather this. Until then, keep writing, keep venting, and don't downplay your own hopes and desires. They may technically be "insignificant" compared to other things going on right now, sure, but they aren't insignificant to you.

Don't sell yourself short. You are allowed to want good things, and you're allowed to vent when life conspires to sell you short.