I can completely relate. At times it is hard to tell if the pastor is up there speaking just to collect a check, or whether he has a real message to share. What's worse, the modern Church has, in most cases, lost all sense of community. To live out and be the body of Christ, we have to work together as a community. I still attend a local Church, but I eventually had to realize it would never satisfy that desire for community (think the early Church in Acts).

About two years ago, my wife and I started a small group that rotates houses each week. There weren't any that we knew of in the area, so we decided to just take a leap of faith and start one. That has been one of the best choices we have made. We are like one big family! We are all completely unique and bring with us all of our weaknesses, strengths, and varied perspectives. Most of us attend different Churches, but we all share the same King. We were really inspired by Francis and Lisa Chan. If you have time, search some of his videos out on youtube.

Thanks for sharing your heart. You are not alone!