@jaynie, this is hugely powerful. I got chills reading it. Please tell us all about your journey. I hope you keep on walking the path with your lost self, and lead her out of her misery. I ache with her. You see, I also had to meet my little me in order to change my life. You are telling my story. Only, it happened way later in my life. I had to hit rock bottom in a major way. I nearly lost my marriage and my children...but thankfully, I am recovering as well. My Father God helps me through the struggle all the way, with the presence of the Holy Spirit in my life.