Hey there @herpetologyguy - WOW - you've really been through a lot.
Being a ghost tour guide must have been very, very cool.
I'm sorry to hear about your separation/divorce. Having been there, those wounds can take years to heal. When I got divorced I made a commitment to heal myself and find hobbies to make me feel whole again. I'm glad I did that because I had a much stronger sense of self.