Energy levels
I am feeling a certain level of lethargy. My brain does not want to think, my body does not want to move, my hands don't want to write.
It is not because I don't have anything to write about because I have several projects that I have been procrastinating on and I have the photos, I have the initial format already written but need to flesh more details.
I stare in front of the monitor, the words blurring, the thoughts not emerging, my fingers not moving.
Even reading and listening to some of my favorite authors are not helping as I see the words, I recognize the thoughts and acknowledge the passion they gave when they created it but I try to write down words of acknowledgment that I read it, that I took their words and it moved me but I am at a loss. on what to say.
I don't want to say good post, I enjoyed it. I want to be able to say how it has moved me yet nothing is coming out.
My apology seems contrived because if I truly enjoyed it then I should be able to say it right. It is a bit contradictory if you might say so but it is how it is.
Even some of my writing lately has felt forced as I pull out one of the many half finished documents that I have saved for days that I don't have the strength.
I did mention that lately I have been going back to playing a lot of online games. I think a part of why I am feeling this way is the energy and time I usually use in engagement has been going to exploring online worlds.
Having those goals in the game and wanting to know every way to get better has wired my brain to devote much of its energy and passion to it.
I still like reading though and scrolling through my feed I have seen some good posts to read.
Maybe I am undergoing a burn out of sorts. I have not really been a content creator before and so my musings have always been with things that I find interesting.
Incidentally I have been doing the musing.io lately and at first it was enjoyable because I was answering people especially on things that I can share about my experiences in Steem and Steemit.
Yet the novelty of the experience has worn off and although it does give a nice pay out, I am not moved by pay outs lately.
So I am writing this post in order to make sense of what I am feeling and how to best deal with it. By writing down my thoughts I acknowledge and give it power and substance. By having those attributes I will be able to break down what is going on and try to find a solution.
The solution could also to not find anything and just let it be. Maybe I need to take a breather but one of my fears is if I do that I might not end up not coming back. It has happened to me before in things that I was passionate about but suddenly left and forgot.
It gets easier and easier each passing day, to not check it, to not think of anything to write, to not be there.
I am hoping it is just a phase and I'll be able to go back.
maybe its time to step out from steemit for a while and come back with a fresh mindset bro.. just my opinion though.. :)
I agree Andy. Maybe some time off will be good. I have been non stop doing Steeming for almost 10 months and the past 2 months getting to publishing twice a day.
Thanks bro.
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I couldn't come up with something to write about today, unlike you, who still managed to write about something. I think that's a good sign.
I suppose Steemit isn't as new or exciting as these new online worlds your exploring, so maybe some of the luster is gone. I've had some on going bouts with burn out that tend to last a day or two, but more recently, I had the one that lasted for about two and a half weeks.
It may just be the realization that STEEM is a long haul venture, and with everything else you've been involved with, plus working, plus getting lost in the gaming world again, even with a need to stay upbeat and positive, there's a lot going on.
Maybe stepping back from something, anything, would be good. You know yourself better than anyone. You're pretty in tune with what you need and you've become the expert on how to make it happen.
I noticed that Glen when you had that period because Ginabot informs me when you post hahaha.
It is not that Steemit is not exciting but maybe its me who has been burn out as a content creator.
I have so many things that I can write about but the drive is just not there.
For almost 10 months I have not missed posting even posting twice a day some days and even 3 at some point.
Thanks Glen for believing in me and think that I got it all figured out hahha
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At one point or another we end up being there for each other. Since I fall into that burnout at any given moment, I'm glad to offer my $0.02, if it helps. In the end, though, we all have to find our own motivations for things. Taking a day or two or more off from posting though might be helpful, and it might be better if you do it intentionally. Unlike me, where it was basically the burnout making me do it. :)
THIS. I FEEL YOU here. I AM here. and feel guilty. You are not alone. hugs my friend but don't stray too far. we need you too.
I hope to be back Snook!
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There are times everyone feels like dry. As if the muse skipped town with someone else. Relax and take it easy. Only not too easy, push on soon. BTW maybe from what I am reading you need me to write you a note to stay away from the computer games for a while.
Yeah time to take it easy then. Although I plan to play video games lol hahaha
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Nice blog.
Good job.
Thank you for the kind words.
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