Your soul...

The things that are on the surface, the ones everyone sees is ... how are they? Sometimes important, sometimes not. The point is never to become more important than what is hidden beneath them.
However, a balance can be found. It's normal you do not want to show everyone what you are, all that's in you, but it's a problem when you can not show anyone. More serious is, if you do not even want to see, realize what's in you.
It's normal to want to share things about yourself, personally or in social media. But it's a problem when you do things just to look interesting. Especially if you do things that do not attract too much or not at all.
It's normal to enjoy the admiration of people or the financial rewards your business offers. But it is a problem if you choose your job on the basis of it.

Why is it a problem if you exaggerate the appearances? If you ever did or do it, I think it's enough to ask yourself: do I feel happy or at least satisfied? Do I have more moments of joy than sorrow in my life? If you have the courage to hear what your soul says, you will have the answer. But even if you are afraid to get into the deep, you will feel a dissatisfaction coming from there. Even for a few seconds. You probably feel that dissatisfaction even without asking questions, but you do not give it importance and distract your attention quickly with something superficial. It is understandable. If you are not happy with yourself, if you have had traumas in the past, if you had dreams that you have shaken or did not have the courage to follow, the trip inside is terrifying. And to be honest, who did not have any trauma in the past? Who has followed all his dreams? Who is completely satisfied with their own person? I think nobody. Or even if there are such people, there are very few.
The journey inside is terrible for all of us, at least in the beginning. Often and after. Especially if you do not have someone near you to accompany you. Someone who accepts your fear and keeps you safe. Someone who can stand by you and when you are in the darkest corner of your soul. Someone who can see and accept you in the ugly state. When you lose, when you cry, when you knelt or scoff at pain. Such people are few. Most try to avoid such situations, give advice, and get you out of those situations. Instant, if possible. And these people have the best intentions, they want to be good, they want you to feel good all the time. Just, you see, life does not work like that. The suffering is part of it. And if you try to avoid it, all you do is just worsen the situation. It's like someone would visit you, with the intention of conveying something to you. But you do not like his moose and you do not want to hear what he has to say, so you try to send him. But he does not leave until he fulfills his mission. So you have no choice, you will have to listen to him.

But as you do not want to look at it, you just start ignoring it. And you will live together so well and well. He will follow you everywhere, you will try to ignore him, he will pull you a nudge around here, you will not notice him and so. It may be so long. And when I say a long time, I mean years, decades or even a life. The time visitors are multiplying, and you collect them in your house, as if you were collecting. Then you are surprised that visitors will not fit in, bringing good news. Or you can not open the door for your loved ones. And all you have to do is look at that visitor to see his face, even if it's ugly, to accept what he conveys to you and let him go.
When I started doing this, many told me that I was looking for the pain with the magnifying glass, that I like to suffer. Yeah, I was looking for the pain with the magnifying glass. The pains that have been in me for many years, buried in my soul and poisoning me slowly but surely. Yes, I looked for these pains because they did not come to the surface easily, and I was used to repressing them. But I did not like to suffer, on the contrary. It's just that I realized that just running away from pain made me suffer and decided to stop and live.
It is very possible, therefore, not to have anyone around you who encourages you to live the pain, to pass through it, and then to get out of it. Yes, we all want to get through trauma, pain, suffering, as fast as possible. The phrase itself says: go over. It just can not be. Going over, means not giving it any weight, just stepping over it. And that's impossible. But it can go through it. It can come to light, but for this you need to pass through the darkness.