RE: WHEN YOU WANT TO BE MARRIED, BUT YOU ARE SCARED OF MARRIAGE
I'm glad you got away from your destructive relationship. Unfortunately, that is all too common a pattern with young, aggressive, sociopathic males.
Us gentlemen have similar concerns in the US. Ned of Steemit is a great (terrible =/) example.
If a woman divorces us in the US, and she doesn't need any sort of reason, she can get half of everything we own and half (or more) of all our future earnings. Ned's wife took him for alimony of more than half his after tax salary. The government literally turns the men here into slaves to support the (newly) single women and mothers, implying that they are helpless and removing them of all agency in a completely non-egalitarian-acceptable manner.
I hope this works out for you! Think LONG AND HARD before you do it, because once you do, your life is probably going to be tied to that course for some time.
Thanks for your contribution here @lexiconical. On the contrary, the reverse is the case here in igboland. When a man divorce his wife, she goes with nothing. As a matter of fact, she even pays him, because the bride price which he paid will be refunded.
Wow, ok, so it sounds like you guys have the same problem, just with the genders reversed.