So sorry to hear! Ugh...that must suck so bad! I completely understand the conflict. The angst is real, but your number one priority is to your well-being. That kind of stress will make you ill and loose focus on the things you hold dear. Look, I'm not saying a complete detachment is required, rather an invitation to realize that there are alternatives to be considered. Thank you so much for being transparent @vermillionfox, I am witness to the struggle and offer empathy.