May Cause Dizziness

I'm just about through this set of meds and I hope this time it works again. It's only an antibiotic, but one which causes a serious side-effect with me. On the side of the bottle it warns of 'Dizziness'. Having lost about three-quarters of my lungs, dizziness (more precisely: lightheadedness) is an everyday thing with me already.

When I'm taking the meds it's so much worse. I find myself holding onto things if I try to walk from one room to another, and walking into things anyway. Standing up is an iffy proposition--I might pass out and fall. I don't even think about going outside. No guarantees out there at all.

I spend my days generally in the two rooms I must. The bedroom and the bathroom. I force myself into this room--our shared office/music room--a few times during the day to do my nearly automated social media checks for my last major client and check on the websites I manage. That's pretty much down to checking email for notifications and looking at Zuckerborg's site for messages and replies. Not much to it but it pays some of the bills. I can't sit here for long though, before pain in my chest and my back forces me horizontal again.

The worst part is my brain. Can't seem to keep my mind focused on one thing more than a few minutes. It's like being extremely stoned, or on a mild acid trip. For weeks and weeks. Not fun, folks.

So far, 2018 has been a pretty rough year for me. Not bad mind you, just hard. Between recurring bouts with debilitating medical issues I've had to deal with some personal issues within the family that are difficult, at best (and somewhat overlapping). The physical and emotional costs have been hard to pay.

I'm counting on this course to be the one that finally works. I'm planning to return to steemit and discord, participating as energetically as I used to do. I'm planning. And that's a good thing. There've been times I wouldn't. Couldn't.

But I have dreams again now, and many of them are thanks to the great people I've met here. Especially folks at @thewritersblock. I'm sorry that I haven't been there for you like I'd planned. I miss you guys so much. I'm hoping to be back with you, as soon as I can.