Amazing farm @cjclaro. I used to have my own big garden and I loved it, I had everything growing. I and my husband want to get a farm to one of these days. We also had chickens, but we want to get other farm animals too eventually (hopefully soon). But I remember all these setbacks that we had to deal with too, especially with the animals. Right now we only have a backyard and beach land in El Salvador with all the fruit trees, like coconuts, bananas, plantains, limes, mangoes, avocados, but we can't even enjoy this right now because we are back in Canada, working hard so we can go back and enjoy and buy more land and animals in El Salvador. As for you, it will get better and you will be able to sit back and enjoy all this hard work you are putting in right now. We cannot understand sometimes what is the reason for these setbacks that happen in our lives, but I believe there is always a purpose for everything, and every setback is just a setup for a stronger, better comeback. God doesn't give us setbacks in life to keep us down and give up, but to get us stronger and wiser and be better off than where we were before. "No pain, no gain" I hate that saying, but it is so true. For some reason, we stop growing when everything goes smoothly in our lives, the only way we tend to grow and learn is by going through hardship and getting out of our comfort zone. So stay strong my friend, it will get better.