No Drugs, Baby-less Sex, and a little Rock n' Roll

It’s been awhile since I’ve done a post about my struggles with sobriety and life so I thought I’d provide an update for anyone that’s interested. If you haven’t read my series on the topic, I’ll link the posts at the end of this blog to get you up to speed.

At the moment, I’ve acquired 1 year, 2 months, and 14 days of clean and sober time. Without getting too proud of myself, it’s quite an achievement for someone that used to struggle to get more than a month or two – or even a few days early on.

Life has been running rather smoothly overall. I know that bumps in the road will appear but for now I’m just enjoying the ride. I still make five to six AA meetings a week and call another alcoholic/addict daily. I still try to do some form of service work weekly – whether that’s the weekend cleanup at my clubhouse or a detox meeting. I also meet with my sponsor every other week or so. I can say without a doubt that sobriety has afforded me a life that I could have never had while drinking and using.

So what’s the catch, you might ask? Surely life is not all ‘unicorns and rainbows’ as a fellow AA’er is fond of saying. No, it’s not perfect and I do have my struggles. Currently, the biggest one that my wife and I face is infertility.

I’m thirty five and she’s thirty and we’re in otherwise very good health (although the wife does struggle with migraines). Regardless, we’ve been trying for a year now with no luck. I think it hits her harder than it does me. She’s always wanted to be a mother whereas I wasn’t convinced I would ever get married. Don’t get me wrong, I’d love to have children, but I think the drive in her is greater than it is in me.

It’s difficult as every month we get our hopes up to no avail. I’ve gotten tested and things seem good on that end although I’m getting another sperm analysis done to double check soon. She’s going to get an HSG test but she’s worried as we’ve heard it can be painful. In addition, it’s difficult because most migraine medication is unsafe to take if you’re trying to get/are pregnant. So in effect, it’s a double whammy – bad headaches with little to no relief and no pregnancy.

Life continues though, and we try to make the best of it. We’re planning to go white water rafting in a week and just enjoy our time together. One thing I’m certain of is that if I weren’t sober, I wouldn’t be able to be there for her. For that, I’m grateful.

Thanks for reading and for any prayers and positive thoughts. Please comment and or follow if you enjoyed!

For those interested in my previous posts about sobriety:

Part I:
https://steemit.com/introduceyourself/@ikilledcobain/what-it-was-like-what-happened-and-what-it-s-like-now-a-year-of-sobriety
Part II:
https://steemit.com/life/@ikilledcobain/what-is-was-like-what-happened-and-what-it-s-like-now-a-year-of-sobriety-part-ii
Part III:
https://steemit.com/life/@ikilledcobain/what-is-was-like-what-happened-and-what-it-s-like-now-a-year-of-sobriety-part-iii
Part IV:
https://steemit.com/life/@ikilledcobain/what-it-was-like-what-happened-and-what-it-s-like-now-a-year-of-sobriety-part-iv
Part V:
https://steemit.com/life/@ikilledcobain/what-it-was-like-what-happened-and-what-it-s-like-now-a-year-of-sobriety-part-v
Part VI:
https://steemit.com/life/@ikilledcobain/what-it-was-like-what-happened-and-what-it-s-like-now-a-year-of-sobriety-part-vi-happy-4-20-lol
Part VII:
https://steemit.com/life/@ikilledcobain/what-it-was-like-what-happened-and-what-it-s-like-now-a-year-of-sobriety-part-vii
Part VIII:
https://steemit.com/life/@ikilledcobain/what-it-was-like-what-happened-and-what-it-s-like-now-a-year-of-sobriety-part-viii