The turmoil of my heart

I always thought my life would take turn for good one day even though i grew up with a really troublesome father who wanted to always have his way and never listened to anything anyone had to say to him but now as the days roll into each other i have less and less hope for a brighter future. Its rather sad i know but that's how i feel and i cant even begin to write why i feel hopeless because i would not be able to write it all in one post