I'm Toxic (Poetry Therapy Poem)
Practice what you preach
The importance of words
I fucked that up.
Try to help people
Turns to shit.
My toxicity is glowing
Showing
Need it to simmer
Not flame
Fucking antidepressants
Or lack of them
I can do this on my own
Zombie or Radioactive
What a choice.
Given all I can give
Exhausted
Promoting hate not hope
A living joke
Corkscrewing
Spiralling
Downwards
No strength to fight
Hide in a hole
Till it passes
Fuck the thoughts in my head
Tormenting me all through the night
Wondering, pondering
Rights and wrongs
Actions and words
Shyness and shit
I blame me
They may not
toxic
mad, bad
dangerous to know
Hugs from children
Making me cry
But is my anchor
I cannot flail too far
Get too down
Just forget the world
It's me and them
Till I get back stronger
Can give hope longer
and let the toxicity slumber
Let it go.....
Just getting my thoughts out on paper is helping. Got to deal with stress better. Just a moment in time. Tomorrow will be better. Hell, this afternoon will be.
Just watched the new My Little Pony film - nothing like a bit of feel good adventure. ;) and a lovely song with words "I can see a rainbow, as the tears come down"
very brigth thoughts.. and very touching!
I have been here. Thank you for writing it out!