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RE: Would you live my life?
I don't have a drug problem myself. One thing I can do is learn from other peoples mistakes. I realize I need to change myself. I have put far too much focus on how others perceive me in my life. If I want things to change then I need to change them. Should that mean I spend the rest of my life alone with some bit of self respect, then so be it. I would rather be alone than feel worthless any longer. I have let first part of my life be run by what other people want and need. Need to fix myself now. Not rely on a false sense of worth I would get from other people's approval. If Aileen believed that I was worth fighting for. She would have done it.
I don't have a drug problem as I do not do drugs - I do not drink either , that's not why I overdosed - but hey - maybe she doesn't realise how deep it all goes for you - I just hope you find the answer - I can see why you would think so though from my above answer I will try to be more precise with my articulation
I understand. Thinking about it now the title sounds like I am dismissive of my life. I don't have the guts to kill myself. This is in no way a cry for help before I do something stupid. It is just an accurate representation of how I feel at this moment. Probably in an attempt to justify my own logic.
EDIT: Also I presumed wrong on how you overdosed. My apologies on that. I appreciate you sharing your experience and trying to help another going through similar pain. Thank you
so had it helped - getting it out there - getting it off you chest so to speak - I just try to offer my perspective - I am no means right much of the time - but your story compelled me to answer - I read it like it was a book - you explained things clearly - and it came to life - I think you have a talent for writing - and I hope you continue to do so
Believe it or not, I have never wrote before steemit. Never been a people person. The longest paragraph I wrote would have been 10 - 15 words on Facebook messanger. Thank you for the complement. It has made me smile on a day it should be impossible. I guess I am still vain and seek the approval of others.
Writing it down has really helped. Seeing it in text makes it clear that whatever happens will be for the best. If we can't work things out then that was the best decision.