Sorry for your loss. I'm sure it was a little bit relieving being able to live your own life again, but the absence of someone who's always there is always strickening.

It is hard to come across fruits that are not treated with pesticides and therefore the idea of the fruit farm.

This. Cancer is mundane nowadays, but we only have ourselves to blame. From pesticide to heating food in the microwave everyday and staying right next to wifi, no wonder the % of the population that has cancer is evergrowing.