I can't put a finger on it, but lately I've been getting annoyed very easily. It's easy to blame the blood moon eclipse (is that a band name yet?), but most likely it won't go away unless I confront myself honestly.

And that's not what this is, not exactly. I'll ask myself. I'll answer. I'll let my emotions drive for a bit. And then I'll go and delete whatever I don't want you to see.

Let's start with what is annoying you. Well, what's annoying?

Work. I just don't feel like doing anything (though of course I still do it). Everything feels slow, and that drives me a little crazy as I am essentially juggling while waiting. When there are little tasks to be done... before I would just frickin do it, but now I'll leave them out to dry. And that's just uncharacteristic as of late. I'm not sure what happened.

Is it actually work? Or is there something from your personal life that is dragging you down?

You know, maybe the steemit life is getting to me. Have I made any real connections or not? Why do I feel stuck? People I've met have been pretty great thus far and I've largely stayed out of crazy fights. Nah I like steemit. I like being a part of this crazy crazy system. Maybe I just want more of it. But I'm also afraid. Is this real? Are you real?

I don't know if I ever said why I'm here. It matches some of the answers to the question I asked on Musing (Fun site, by the way). Cryptocurrency was catching fire. I told myself, hey wouldn't it be nice if there was a way to accumulate some cryptocurrency somewhere without actually spending money? I ended up here pretty quickly. I wanted to know how it all worked, and I treated it like a game. And I'm addicted. Join the club right? I ended up investing money after deciding it was fun. Why would I be here and not on other social media? Isn't it the same high? I don't know, I largely stayed away from it all. Did a game trick me into being social?

Maybe you're just dodging the real problems. Is your life okay?

My life does seem to consist of work and steemit and very little of much else. There's still family time, and some activities arranged before hand, but maybe could be more. That's probably not good.

Hmm I'm reminded that I talk too much and don't know when to stop. Yuck. And I like when people listen. That's maybe why I like steemit. I like to blabber, and people seem to listen sometimes. This is my platform.

Um. You seem okay...?

Didn't dig deep enough. I think probably something about purpose. I did end up deleting some things after all. But yeah I need to dig deeper. I'm afraid...

Oh yeah, I don't actually want any advice. A silent nod would be great. Or a nicely bundled trick package that's actually advice in disguise. Yup. Thanks for reading. This concludes a manifestation of the "meh" day.