LORD, how many are my foes! How many rise up against me! Psalm 3:1

I've read this passage and behold, this was my cry! January was not good to me. I have unresolved incidents, the escalation from a client that could not work on system design, and filed up responsibilities. I woke up pushing myself to show up and be brave despite how I was weak inside. I groaned as if it was my air while keeping my focus to achieve my January goals no matter what.

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Life is not perfect and I know that ever since. Trials will come to me anytime, every time and I know that I have to show up and face every day as if I have a brave heart even I don't have. When my problem got bigger as if it was really testing my limits, the day came when I just wanted to give up and didn't give a TooT!

I anchored to these verses so I am still alive.

In the morning, I lay my requests before you and wait expectantly. Psalm 5:3

I'm not holy but holymeow! Whenever I give my best and it seems it is not good enough, I just surrender everything to the Supreme being. I keep on working with my responsibilities but I know in my heart that I have given up. For so many years, proven and tested, it is the time when miracles are poured out from heaven. You didn't win but heaven won't let you lose.

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I only had one week to meet my target and my numbers were so far from reality. I didn't mind, I just keep on working and give my best every time. Some issues were getting brighter and some issues were being resolved. I found myself having few "easy" issues that can be resolved even without thinking and I knew that it came from heaven.

I call out to the LORD, and he answers me from his holy mountain. I lie down and sleep; I wake again because the LORD sustains me. I will not fear though tens of thousands assail me on every side. Psalm 3:4-6

I cried out for help because I was having a hard time. I knew that I was out of my comfort zone. I felt like I've lost my magic. I felt like I was not a star anymore and I was not good anymore.

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Whenever you feel pain, be on the positive side. Take it as a blessings, because pain makes you grow. It will stretch your limits. It will elevate your thinking. So when you groan, you grow! I keep on saying that to myself even the process really hurts. So when you groan, you grow!

The Lord has heard my cry for mercy; the lord accepts my prayer. Psalm 6:9

This month reminded me that I am nothing without my God! If you are non-believer, this is not for you. But I know that a supernatural thing is helping, watching and guiding me through the years. I cannot do all these things without Him. He let me out of my comfort zone from time to time to tell me that I need to grow and that I should not be afraid for He will be there whenever I call, whenever I cry for His help.

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January was good to me. I didn't win but heaven didn't let me lose.