Great story with vivid details. I've got to admire you for the control and courage you have to fight off your fears to help conquer something that holds such joy for you. Sometimes I think that those who haven't conquered fear in some way or another have never really lived. Not that it's my job to set criteria for what living is, but I know that I have been afraid many times, but stuck with it until I at least had a good story. I try never to come off with false bravado, but admit my weakness just as you have, and appreciate that the victory is not having never been afraid, but in facing fear, staring it down, and conquering it, even if it's just for the moment. Thanks for the great read!