What A Life! 😞

I have prayed many times for God to take me in my sleep IF He is not going to bless me.

No job, nothing seems to be working. No sight of a spouse. Nothing. I may be the architect of my downfall since I don't even pray. Whatever is keeping me from praying is really winning. I need help.

If I brought this upon myself, then I want a turnaround.
If somebody brought this upon me, then I want to be free from it.

I want Wins!