If My Heart Won't Beat Me My Liver Condition Will
You may or may not know that I am also ill with liver problems, two of them in fact that are wrecking havoc to my Liver, killing its cells one by one until no more liver cells can do its job anymore.
And yes I am a "walking" complication in two weak legs which is why the thought of it for me is already ridiculously funny that I cannot cry anymore. I don't think that I can cry anymore in the event that my liver would be the one that would conk-out before my heart because my heart as it seems is still holding up to now, I can't feel much irregularities like pain and all that, just some blood pressure issues when I am hooked-up at dialysis but it is maybe I am flooring it when it comes to the fluid removal.
It was my brother that developed a heart ailment and he went to the doctor because of what he is feeling with his heart. Hopefully he will be much better soon like before, he is on a special diet and now even keeping a routing of eating only once a day.
My brother was actually set for a heart artery widening procedure, something called like stenting but before the procedure began the surgeon had seen that the special imaging apparatus showed that stenting was no longer needed, so the medications and change in lifestyle by my brother worked.
As for my own health particularly for my Liver being eaten by #Hepatitis B and and just recently the C virus I don't think I will survive for as long as I want because if the chemical processing and detoxifying organ will not work it will just be the end of me.
That is the reality that I am facing and I am already numb to the fact that I am battling so many fronts that I do not know what to prioritize anymore. So I do think my family had lost hope and that I am just surviving all because I still have the means to bridge my life.
Anyway, at first I knew that I was infected after we went to the Nephrologist in the capital Manila, it was my birthday, we had already the result waiting to show to the Kidney specialist.
Then one of the mother of the patient saw my result, she told us that I am positive with Hepatitis B. I can't believe it and I didn't know how to react until the doctor confirmed that I have the Liver virus and the awful thing was he said that I will not be treated "as protocol" because I have the virus.
So we went home and at the bus I am already crying until my Kidney went bust suffering all the while until now.
I acquired the Hepatitis C at the hospital, but could very well came from the blood transfusions that I had. But at the hospital since they pool the dialyzers of the patients positive for B and C before cleaning I got infected.
I could have sued the hospital but these hospitals makes us sign a waiver that states that dialysis is a special procedure that could lead to death, infections, and other complications. If you will not sign that then you will not be able to get dialyzed.
Nothing now that I can do but to wait until the virus goes away but of course they will not and there are two of them already in my body damaging my liver every single day.
Now I am just hoping and wishing that I can recover naturally, may vitamin C has a good effect or maybe not, of course a medical intervention is needed but I still have a limited resources which is why I can't proceed in seeing a specialist knowing that the fees will be great plus no one will ever support me even though I really do not want to bother anyone with this kind of medical predicament.
I may have a good inner strength but I can't help but feel frustrated, defeated, sad, and all that bad things because it seems like the world is against me. I am just trying to be happy all the time because feeling bad will never ever do me good even though the situation really is hopeless.
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As long as you are alive, all hope it not lost; take it a day at a time..miracles do happen..have faith✨✨
Thank you, may God bless you always.