Dear Internet Diary

It has been raining all afternoon as I am being dialized on this dialysis day. I haven't eaten much of my convenience store meal maybe because the pineapple juice and bread I had filled me up so my father just packed it in the cooler and I ate it up again after we came home because it is my favorite, pork in gravy with rice.

I just feel weaker these past few days so my mother just helps me walk like a drunk man with my arms over her shoulders so I am still struggling. I also forgot to ask for the medicine used for the nebulizer, the salbutamol so I may have to borrow one again if needed. Ass we go home after the dialysis session, I just had this headache, I am not used to having headaches as I don't get them frequently so I tried to get some sleep.

I did got some sleep with bonus dreams. One dream is me with a buddy in school college. Actually two dreams of a school setting, one at college with that mysterious buddy I am with and then this weirdly painted classroom of a primary school. Maybe those dreams are just a reflection of my frustration of wanting to finish schooling, for I haven't been able to finish because I am already sick those years of the whole decade of the 90's. I realized I have been sick all the years of my life.

My sister also went home here today. I am proud of her, she finally decided to work as a teacher. That profession is not her choice actually but was only pushed to her by my parents for the reason of unaffordability of her other chosen college degree which is physical therapy. So after finishing schooling and passing the board exam, she went on getting a job being a saleslady on a boutique in Dubai for two years. After that he married and after having three kids more than ten years after graduating, she finally had her first paycheck as a high school teacher with the helping hand of my sister in law who assisted her of getting the job, she is also a teacher of a high rank.

My sister also gave me and my parents some money from her first paycheck, so my parents just is as proud and happy about her, they thought she really won't use her profession. But she has to work in a far away district so her children and her have to live with her husband's mother's home because if she would be coming from here to her school. it would be more expensive to commute so they decided to live near the school.

Now my headache is gone as I create this article, that is what's important for now, I couldn't take another misery but they come, one after another. I am just trying to handle, my body is so tough, it just won't let go.