I remember one time i woke up and was very tired, despite sleeping for over ten hours. I felt numb,utterly broken and asked myself "Why do i have to go through this" and "Why can't it just end?"

I was alone at home and it happened. I broke down in tears, i couldn't hold it any longer.
However i felt something warm inside me. In my mind i had this clear image of my dear mother hugging me when i was crying to remove my pain and give me love like no one else can. To this day I am grateful that my dear mother loved me the way she did.

And everytime i feel like i can't anymore i take some deep breath, visualize my mum hugging me and let all the pain flow down like a river.

Jerry your post really touched me and i wish you all the best for you and yout family.