Advice from a procrastinator

Well there. I said it. Big and bold for everyone to see. Take this to heart because I lived it. It's not fun. From the earliest time I remember, I have procrastinated everything. There's no real rhyme or reason. Hopefully others wont follow suit. As I type this I should be doing about seven other things, but yet I choose to do this. It's only putting other important things further behind yet i cant seem to make myself stop doing it.

First, I have made a few realizations. I revel in the chaos of disorder. The discord of not knowing what Im doing in the next few hours, I seem to thrive in. I function and make decisions at peak level on a spur of the moment. I start with a semblance of a plan that gets altered as the day goes by. My job allows for that and actually causes changes as I go, but It doesnt compare to the self inflicted problems that arise.

I'm always rushing to get from one place to another. Also, living in Florida doesnt help. The rush hours are the same every day and as much as I would like to change it, any alternate route has been found. Being a CDL (commercial driving licence) holder I have alot stricter laws than a normal driver has to follow. Even knowing this, I push my luck to the max. If something tragic were to happen, I would be charged and go to jail. That still doesnt effect the procrastinating.

It also causes friction with the boss. I completely understand what he wants and it's no disrespect to him, I just cant seem to change 30 years of ingrained behavior. I smoke cigarettes and have for close to 20 years now. It's the same kind of concept. There is a physical dependency, but there is also 20 years of repetitive behavior you are trying to change by will power alone. It's training the mind as much as fighting the cravings.

Worst thing I can think of though, is the forgetting things. It never fails if I don't do a checklist before walking out the door, i have to go back in at least twice. It's even worse when you get half way to a destination and realize you forgot something. At that point you can't turn back. It just does not have a positive effect.

Heed my advice. Don't be like me. Could call this advice from a Fuck up, but Im trying to paint it in a positive light. Just gonna share the do's and don'ts that I've experienced anyways and hey... Let's see if it helps someone. That would be the best kind of praise.

-Bran