hmmm.... I think maybe experiences of having been targeted for being "different" in past lives or ancestral (genetic) memory. Which is why I try to take my inner cautions seriously, and not go past them. Hesitation is always there for a reason, even if it's an old one that doesn't necessarily apply anymore, it still means there's old stuff there to be cleared I think. Until I can feel that it doesn't apply anymore, I do my best to honor it.