Thanks for sharing your personal, vulnerable story. It sounds like a very difficult situation because of such different cultures. Hang in there and I wish you, your baby and your family the best. My old roommate (white boy American) met a girl from Pakistan and they spoke for years online. He was determined to be with her. He went to Pakistan, converted to Muslim and married her there. They now live in California. He had to fight fore her citizenship because you know how our country is when it comes to anything like this. They are happy together and in love. Best wishes.