Beautiful pictures, but sad to read that you and your partner aren't on the same page anymore. That's always a hard thing, going through these times. But I can read you are strong, because you told him to leave a while to figure out his wants and needs, so you can seek your own values and needs too. That takes a strong person to do so! To some people it may feel like an easy thing to do, but I remember from the past that I had a hard time letting go because of the children. I always kept believing in fairytales .. but that's a story on another level (didnt work out) .. I am happy to have a partner on the same page now, but it cost me like my whole life back then staying in that situation. I wish a was a bit wiser back then.
But people can only learn from the mistakes and do better after..
I hope you will soon find your needs and will be able to live up to them. Your child looks absolutely adorable by the way <3