What were you thinking ?

Ever reflect on your past ? Look back and think...., why ? Why did I do that ? Why did I think that was so important ? I could have done that differently ? I could have done that better ? I could have done better than that ?

I have been doing a lot of reflecting this past week , and I found that I could have handled so many things differently. ....I also think back and realize that some things / people weren’t worth all the aggravation they caused. Some people in my life aren’t worth the pain they caused. Some people aren’t worth any of it .

People are strange. The way they think, the way they do things , etc..... People get over others easily when they are distracted . ....When there is someone else available to distract them..... You ever hear of the saying “ the easiest way to get over a breakup is to get into another relationship “? , well , it’s true . ....But the problem with that is , you go into that relationship with your eyes closed. You want it so badly , that you are blind to so many other things .

Sorry but another relationship is the last thing I need. I’m over all my relationships. I am civil and to the father of my children, I’m nice to him for the sake of my children and my business. My kids should not have to grow up torn between two parents. We will figure that all out . Living apart but present for our kids . Trying to get along for our kids , which is easier said than done .

What is with me and the guys I choose ? I get one that goes from loving and caring to abusive. I then fall in love with someone who couldn’t hold on just a little bit longer. Someone who I believe cared about me, but moved along when he thought he found a better situation .