I wish I could get my husband to read your posts. It is amazing how you can acknowledge the person you were before your son. It is a life changing moment when one becomes a parent but it starts to really transform us as time goes by and we realise the reality of everything that will shape my baby's future self and opprtunities. I particularly agree with the point you make about leading your family. It is hopeful to know that someone like you has learned to be a strong leader as a result of becoming a father. I am beginning to see a bit of that in my husband too which makes me admire him more and more. He is definitely a different man than the one I met and married. To me, fatherhood has brought out the better side of him.