What are your goals?
I wish I had this, I wish I had that. If I was the governor of this if I was in this position. How I wish I was doing this or that, that is where most persons stop. Truth is you have never challenged yourself. You can be anything you want to be if you work towards it. Failure doesn't mean you will never succeed. Constant practice and persistence will give you victory one day. Even if you don't win or succeed at least you learnt something. Never give up trying.