You are a statist with libertarian leanings. That's better than being a full-blown authoritarian monster, obviously. That's your business, but "libertarian" means "maximum liberty". Some state is less than the maximum liberty. Like I say, a little cancer is still cancer.
There is room for you in libertarianism, but you need to be honest with yourself as to what you are advocating. Who is it you want to initiate force or theft against without feeling you are doing something you have no right to do? Without feeling like the bad guy?