letting go

It's been more than two (2) months when my sister Li Riza left us...

I am a believer of life after death, of paradise and heaven, and I believe she is with her creator now. She is in a place devoid of sickness, of pain and of worries.
She is too young to die, at age 26, quite true, but on second thought she had lived well lived life as compare to others who have reached their prime.
She had known happiness not by the wealth or riches this earthly life could provide but through the love she has for her parents, her siblings, nephews and nieces, her students for she is a very good teacher, hee friends and colleagues.
Each day she lived is a life without prejudices but only of understanding of things that she cannot change and being grateful of what the world has to offer.
She has been battling with Chronic Kidney Disease, end stage at that for four (4) years before her demissed. Yet, not once that you heard her complain about it and blame fate of the sufferings that she went through.
She never lost her faith, it is her faith and love for family that keeps her going, until her body can take it no more.
Her sickness was not a hindrance for her to become good teacher and influence young souls and inspiring others to go beyond what they're capable of.
Her wisdom surpasses her age.
Her love is unfathomable...
She is no saint but I know she deserve spot in heaven, that is for sure....
I cry, the whole family cry, no we do not just cry, we are weeping as if tears flows out of spring...
we are heart broken, we are devastated, we terribly missed her, all of her...
It is quite hard to deal on thoughts of hugging her once more, hear her sing once again, see her smile for one last time...
Yet, if it be granted, I know it will not be enough, we will still be longing for more...
as we hope for it and long for it, the feeling become more intense, the pain become more unbearable, most of all her journey towards the light will be so hard... eventually we have to let go, we have to learn how to smile as we think of her and be thankful for all the memories that we have shared... we dearly missed you our langga (beloved) Li.