My Near Death Experience, Past Life & Spiritual Awakening Story (SWC)

Today I wanted to share with you my life experiences which made me what I am right now. Special thanks to @jerrybanfield for having this opportunity to share with you my story and I hope this will give you motivation in life. Maybe you were wondering right now about the title of this entry but I want you to know that in every experience there are lessons to be learned and then you will realize that experiences are interconnected to each other. Death, Life then Spirit. It is not a coincidence but it is with purpose. It is not by accident that these 3 are part of the topics posted by @jerrybanfield but I know there is something that we need to discover. So let me share to you first my near death experience;

NEAR DEATH EXPERIENCE: The Night Of Joy Turns to Trauma

Around 8 in the evening me together with my sisters and brother in law decided to go swimming at the private pool here in Iligan City. It was unplanned bonding and agreed to go immediately before the pool closes. We ask permission to our parents that night and gladly permitted us to go but they said to go home as early as we can because it is already late in the evening. So, we hurried to prepare our dress to wear and get a taxi. We just bought foods in the convenience store just along the street for our snacks. As we got in there, we pay (P100.00) one hundred pesos each as an entrance fee and we are advice that the resort will be closed by 10:00 o'clock to be exact. We rent a cottage to put all our things and foods there and go swimming all together. It was so cold whenever you go out from the water and feel the air touching your body like it was piercing through your soul (exaggerated )but then we never stop. We went separate ways, separate pools, me with my younger sister, my older sister and her husband. We didn't know how to swim except to my brother in law because he is well trained in his job. He is a seaman. I really wanted to know how to swim but no matter how I tried I still don't make it :/ I'm too old to be taught how to swim. So, I tried on my own.

We went to a pool nearby where we were standing and enjoyed the night but then suddenly I'm drowned. All I can see is the bubbling water i front of me. I drunk a lot of water and trying to go up to breath but then I can't. I'm so scared and thinking if it was already my time and no one can saved me from drowning. But then what scared me most was that my younger sister came to saved me. I don't know if I will be glad or sad because she don't know how to swim too. I don't what comes up to her mind to try to save me when she knew to herself she doesn't know how to swim. So what happened was that we both get drowned that time. I don't know what force it is that make us go up one by one just to breath and shout for a "heeeeelp!" But I know it was a sign of hope for us. Though there were 2 lifeguards near to us they didn't immediately noticed us drowning. As we were fighting and not lose hope, all of a sudden I felt there something I felt under my feet then I noticed there is something stair touched beneath my feet. And I tried hard to go there. Then I gain hope and saved both of our lives. The lifeguards were late but I still thank them for their efforts.

Then I realized a lot of things during that time. I don't want to remember it anymore but its hard to forget. I got traumatized every time we go swimming again either beach or pool even taking shower it comes to my mind whenever I see water, bubbling water I want to forget! We go home with fear in our hearts. Fear not to be scolded by our parents but a fear that "what if"

What if we both died? What if one of us died? What if there's someone innocent to blame? ......I cannot forgive myself if that happened just because of me. :(

Today, I'm still trying for forget and forgive myself to what had happened yesterday :)

PAST LIFE: The Darkness Of The World

My past life is not that bad as some other experiences. We are happy doing ordinary things, a family that sometimes fight and sometimes laugh. It is just normal! But then, though we were happy, there is that feeling of emptiness inside and I don't know what that thing to fill in. My life before was a life without vision, without goal, without purpose. Why? Because I don't know for what it is for! I thought everything I do or make were right because I am happy but it is not.

Not everything we do that makes us happy are right. There were also difference between right and true.

Before in my high school life, I was a girl they think so good because we are not like any other girls out there who are rebellious to their parents, talking bad things or expressions, etc. but actually we are really not doing that but it doesn't mean we are good already. I can say to myself that I have sins too just like you and them. Since 2nd year highs chool I started to go on lying, rebelling, catching up with friends sometimes.
In conclusion, my life is inconsistent, not contented and empty. That was the old me.

SPIRITUAL AWAKENING: I Found God in My Life That Fill The Emptiness Within Me

As the word of God says, "You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart."

Now, that emptiness was filled by Holy Spirit that continue to works within me. Happiness turns to gladness and joy! Contented in every way because I know that I have a God that never leave me, nor forsake me. A Father in heaven that provides everything I need in every aspect of life. He is a God yesterday, today and forever.

None in this earth we can find contentment and satisfaction because it can only be found eternally.

"For I satisfy the weary ones and refresh everyone who languishes."

-Jeremiah 31:25