Mate I know where you are coming from honestly.
But I think you need to step away a little, stop over analyzing it and take a little time out, just for yourself.
Turn it all off for a weekend or even a week. Get out in the bush and go camping for a weekend, go get shitfaced and laid, enter a mosh pit or something, Climb a mountain, plant a garden, lay on a beach and count different coloured pebbles.
Basically just get a reset in your head and soul, all this shit eats away at who you really are, not just to you yourself but all those around as well.
I have been in the position of not having to worry about money, yeah it does take a load off. BUT, it does not make one iota of difference in the rest of your life at all. You still have all the rest of your life to consider as well, the bills might be gone but none of the rest of it is.
You are still the same person , but you can pay your bills and afford some extras, So What ?
The stress of everyday life does not leave, it doesn't make dealing with it any easier either, if anything it can become more complicated as you are dealing with managing not only the wealth, but also the affect that has on those around you, friends and family, loved ones and business partners as well.
You have said it above yourself, you have compromised yourself , who you are in order to achieve wealth , you don't need to remove the emotion you need to embrace it along the way otherwise you will lose yourself in the process of trying to achieve wealth.
"It is likely that I have compromised my value system in many, ways and also been less than charitable in many situations I could have given a little more. What has forced me into acting in ways that if I observed from afar, I would not want to associate with myself?"
I personally don't see wealth measured in Dollar signs any more, it took me a while to get to that point as well. But I measure Wealth in happiness, Family Friends, laughter, fun, enjoyment first and Dollars a very poor second.
Money will buy you very few of the above, and if you sacrifice those that it wont buy for those that it will, then you are all the much poorer anyway in my mind.
This is the current process. Getting away isn't the problem but the same problems are there when I return so I have to make inroads at some point. What I have decided upon is to pick a few long term coins, and increase them a little at a time and step back.
The getting blotto is of course on the cards but having sex? I am married so that is not. :D
Oh Bullshit, Just cause your married is no excuse, I've been defacto 20 years + and we get Blotto and Bonk like there is no tomorrow all the time.
Seriously though Mate, it seems like it is the constant trading pressure that is causing you grief and stressing you out, constantly risking while trying to get ahead and such.
Have you considered splitting your portfolio into a hodl and trading partition ? Something to play with that isn't all totally a win or lose and something solid in the background that you can just sit on and know is sort of safe with some solid Crypto's ? You know 50-50 or 25-75, something like that which lets you get exposure to the risk while having a backup as well.
It might be something that satiates your risk appetite while also satisfying your risk aversion as well. Take say 25 % off the top of your current gains and go hard with that, trading to your hearts content risking the lot but keeping the other 75% held down for six months at a time and then Rea-assessing the whole lot then.
I've made some great short term gains trading the daily and weekly swings myself with cryptos but found the best overall gains are to be made by buying and holding relatively long term in Alts that actually have a future. Doesn't stop me trading ETH or BTC for this and that and back again, but overall just sitting has been much more rewarding, well except for that 2K lisk trade and that 1K Pot trade and ........ Oh never mind.
This is the approach I have moved to and moving further to slowly.
I am very new to this whole blockchain crypto world so it was good to get in there and play, but now, I have finally learned how to use a desktop wallet so have put some aside.
I still have to figure out what would be good to hold long term but I have some eth and eos and will try to add some btc in time.
I am calmer about it already.