Day 42 I'm back

It's been a while. It was ridiculous of me to stick to writing a blog every day for 365 days. Seemed realistic and took me down big time. I think it doesn't work that way with us humans.

So here I am listening to Peter Fox's Schwarz zu Blau not understanding a word but liking the flow of the music. The videos also looks kühl. Sometimes I wonder why I learn german as I don't really see any point to it. I'm just sticking to it thinking that it would bring me a better life, which obviously it won't.

I haven't done much since new years because of my broken leg. But I've been going regularly to work, attending German classes, and finishing the day off with some physiotherapy. And my weekends go up in smoke before I even realize it's a weekend. I'm in this claustrophobic time capsule that I feel is going to swallow me in. I just wish I could there (whatever there is) because grinding away at it (whatever 'it' is) is tolling up on me.

I have decided to start my own firm in a years time or two. I'm doing as much as research as possible but I haven't been documenting or making the research become worthy. I just wish I could get over learning German, guitar, or whatever it is I want to learn and move on with life.

I have this concept of life that every human has some inert potential that needs to be realized within his/her lifetime. That's the reason behind me being a megalomaniac trying my hand at whatever comes my way. I am also planning to learn tamil, kannada, telugu, and malayalam and speak it like locals soon. I want to be this upper being but the irony is that I never will if I try too hard. And that's why I like smoking up once in a while as it brings me back to reality and helps me to relax.

And I need a room to myself. Period!

THe trading has been going good.