How i stopped giving a fuck.

Let me introduce myself.
I am Nessie.

For the past 6 years, i have worked in the music industry. I could say music business, but industry is more fitting, it does not have much to do anymore with our passion for music. Once, when i was 17, i had set my mind on becoming a music manager, so i did.
I ventured out into the big world, and with a few detours, landed an internship that would both shape and nearly destroy me, and also train me to become one of the soulless 9-5 slaves.
Wait, what happened here? I used to be that girl that wanted to adventure, to travel and to be free. I have always traveled a lot - 21 countries and counting - and mostly on my own, and i found ways to stay semi-free even while working in the music industry. However, i was just kidding myself.
Although traveling more than most of the people around me, it was mostly for business, solely adding a few more days for myself to every trip. Looking back, i never really fit in. I tried hard to for once be like everyone else. Why, do i ask myself today?
Why do people want to be like other people?
I lived on like this for a couple of years, as one does - read: i was slowly getting trapped in the rat race. I lived a life in a souleating bubble, a bubble where it is most important who you hang out with, which party you go to and what sneakers you wear. That can make or break your career, i kid you not.

Then one day, i found myself skyping with an old friend whom i´d met traveling. And suddenly, i remembered. This is not it. This can´t be all. I booked myself a flight to Portugal leaving in 2 days, and upon having to return back to my old life a few days later, i had a full blown panic attack first on the airport and later in the office again.

That´s when i decided to not give a damn about my career, or the industry, or all the superficial people around me anymore. I handed in my notice, went back to Portugal for a month, did one last tour as a tourmanager with my favourite artist and dear friend, sublet my flat and booked a one-way flight to Hawaii.

My not-giving-a-fuck life has started. Welcome to my epic life.

I´ll take the steemit community on my adventures. Beware though, i am very clumsy.

I will share old anecdotes about the music industry, as well as giving you insights in whatever catches my jumpy mind.
A mix of a healthy lifestyle, unnerving adventures, ranty german-ness, thoughts on whatever i deem thoughtworthy or just pictures.