Female Entrepreneur

When I was still in university, I took a few psychology courses just out of some curiosity.
It is very interesting to learn that in evolution theory, female natural instinct is to search for stability and security.
That explains a lot - thats what came to my mind.

After finishing my degree, I worked in a company before I decided to start my own.
It is now almost a year since I decided to be a self-employed or I prefer the term - entrepreneur.

I have a lot of associates, clients, and unlimited resources.
When I said resources, I'm not talking about capital-money, But there's an over supply of hotels, villa, manpower, raw material, and low wages in Bali.

So in the beginning, it seems to me that it will be all sunshine, rainbow, and unicorn on my journey. Through meditation I learn that "success is my birth right". I am positive about that.

After three months into the business, reality starts to hit.
Finding more clients, more projects, and more profit is the only thing in my mind. But what I find is... more competition.

Projects got taken by other people, some management team decided to steal my concepts and do that on their own,
friends and associates starts to jump me over some deals. and the cashflow has putting a lot of pressure on my creative mind.

Today I am working on few tour projects, corporate events, weddings, and a festival that will happen in three days.
a phone call from immigrations came.
somebody has reported that on my charity concert, some of the international artists has not doing a proper paperworks.

• I know the drill.
• they want bribes.

another phone calls came

• the corporate clients got another deal thats $500 cheaper than my proposal.

another phone calls came

• we want 20 rooms for $50 but it has to be on the beach front. ( really? )

I am smiling,
I am far away from my comfort zone. I am struggling. I am stressing out.
But it means only one thing. I am growing to be a stronger person.

Then the thoughts of my psychology class pop up in my head.
-Female are searching for stability and security.
And here I am facing all my problems hoping that one day my future self can be proud of herself that yes, I am working hard and patiently creating a stability and security for her.
And hopefully it isn't just for my self, but for the people around me, and for a larger community.

Thanks for reading